Gary UNCUT

Yep my old AOL screen name is still alive and for some reason I still own it, all I have to do is remember my password. Laurie's cat is driving me nuts, she crying all the time and pissing all over the place, she is in heat and we can't afford to get her fixed. It's our fault of course not the poor cat, we are surpose the responsible human pet owns, yeah right. My cat is fixed, so all he does is just attacks her when she presents herself. Things are calmer now than they where, the new meds are slowly entering my system and hopefully avoiding any more complications. I see Dr. Feder, my PCP, on Friday and hopefully things will look better then. Next week I go to Rochester and do the nutritional thing, we are most likely looking at four or five return visit to that lady. I should rent a room there it would be cheaper lol. I hate bus travel but I am too poor to fly and the American require fat people to buy two seats on a plane. Ah that's it for now. I'll update later either when I have something to say or something happens.

Only number the movies you've seen. If you've seen over 70, then you're a movie whore.

(01) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(02) Grease
(03) Pirates of the Caribbean
( ) Boondock Saints
(04) The Mexican
(05) Fight Club
() Starsky and Hutch
(06) Neverending Story
(07) Blazing Saddles
(08 ) Airplane
() The Princess Bride
(09) Young Frankenstien
( ) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
(10 ) Saw
( ) White Noise
(11 ) White Oleander
(12 ) Anger Management
(13 ) 50 First Dates
(14 ) Jason X
(15) Scream
(16) Scream 2
(17) Scream 3
(18) Scary Movie
(19 ) Scary Movie 2
(20) Scary Movie 3
(21) American Pie
(22) American Pie 2
(23 ) American Wedding
(24) Harry Potter
(25) Harry Potter 2
(26) Harry Potter 3
(27) Resident Evil I
( )Resident Evil 2
() The Wedding Singer
(28) Little Black book
(29) The Village
(30) Donnie Darko
(31) Lilo & Stitch
(32) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
(33) 13 Ghosts
(34) Signs
(35) The Grinch
(36) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(37 ) White Chicks
(38 ) Butterfly Effect
(39) Thirteen Going on 30
(40 ) I, Robot
() Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
(41 ) Universal Soldier
(42) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came Polly
(43 ) Deep Impact
(44 ) KingPin
(45) Never Been Kissed
(46) Meet The Parents
( ) Meet the Fockers
(47 ) Eight Crazy Nights
(42) A Cinderella Story
(43 ) The Terminal
(44 ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(45) Dumb & Dumber
(46) Dumb & Dumberer
(47 ) Final Destination
(48) Final Destination 2
(49) Halloween
(50) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(51) Practical Magic
( ) Chicago
(52) Ghost Ship
(53 ) From Hell
(54) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
(55 ) I Am Sam
(56 ) The Whole Nine Yards
(57) The Day After Tomorrow
(58 ) Child's Play
(59 ) Bride of Chucky
( ) Ten Things I Hate About You
(60 ) Just Married
(61) Gothika
(62) Nightmare on Elm Street
(63) Sixteen Candles
( ) Coach Carter
(64) Bad Boys
(65) Bad Boys 2
(66) Joy Ride
(67) Seven
(68) Oceans Eleven
( ) Oceans Twelve
(69) Identity
(70 ) Lone Star
(71) Bedazzled
(72) Predator I
(73 ) Predator II
(74) Independence Day
(75) Cujo
(76) Darkness Falls
(77) Christine
(78) ET
(79) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss' Daughter
( ) Maid in Manhattan
(80) Frailty
( ) Best Bet
( ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
( ) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(81) Mars Attacks
(82) Event Horizon
(83) Ever After
(84) Forrest Gump
(85) Big Trouble in Little China
(86) X-Men
(87) X-2: X-Men United
(88) Jeepers Creepers
(89) Jeepers Creepers 2
(90) Catch Me If You Can
(91) The Others
( ) Freaky Friday
(92) Reign of Fire
(93) Cruel Intentions
(94) The Hot Chick
(95) Swimfan
( ) Miracle
( ) Old School
( ) Ray
( ) The Notebook
(96) K-Pax
(97) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(98) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(99) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(100 ) A Walk to Remember
( ) Boogeyman
( ) Hitch
(101) The Fifth Element
(102) Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
(103) Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
( ) Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
(104) Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
(105) Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(106) Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi...
( ) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with Sharks
(107) Air Force One
( ) For Richer or Poorer
( ) Trainspotting
(108 ) People Under the Stairs
(109 ) Blue Velvet
(110) Sound of Music
( ) Parent Trap 1
( ) Parent Trap 2
(111) The Burbs
(112) The Terminator
(113) Empire Records
( ) SLC Punk
(114 ) Meet Joe Black
( ) A Bronx Tale

Everything has been really messed up here lately. After coming home from the doctor on Friday and talking to Laurie, we agrued most of Friday and part of Saturday. I told what I expected from a relationship and I thought things where going wrong and if we can't work things out then we are going to have to separate, I gave her till Friday to figure out what she wants, if not then we separated and then after a year, one of us will file for divorce. It's been very stressful on me and I have just been laying low. Since Saturday afternoon, things have been very quiet, I don't think progress has been made but i can use the peace and quiet. I started my new meds, don't really feel any different, just really tired and I had a really nasty nights sleep last night. I just hope she doesn't think I will give in like I always do because I wont, I can't, this is my life at stake here and no one is worth that. I am going to take it easy today, hopefull it will continue to be quiet. I don't think it has to with right and wrong, I just think we have different goals and expectations. Oh yeah love does not conquer all, nor is it all you need.

DEFEATED

When you don't expect anything to work out, you aren't as upset when the don't. Well that's a lie isn't it..

You're just looking for love. You're very
emotional, and a lot of sad teenagers are going
to turn to you when they feel like shit.
You're also into BDSM, you devil, you.


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I just got home from seeing Dr. Z, and I was right, I am back on meds again, things have not going really well. He fears my aniexty is so high that it could affect my heart so he is going to talk to my PCP and have the set up a stress test to if there any damage to my heart. He said not to worry that it is just make sure everything is ok. If there is a problem I will not be going ahead with my wieght loss surgery, i have to get things under control. The issue is stress and my main stress is Laurie, she has been years and we can't work things out she will have to leave and go back home. It's not her fault but we have been so far apart on things for so long that things where bound to hit a head and they have. I am not sure what to do but I will do it before I drop dead. I will find more when I see Dr. Feder next week. That's all I got to say right now.

Not too fucken much, things are begining to heat up with my community service works, all the nutcases are ready for the new season. I really don't have the energy to deal with it all. My back is acting up so I am not in my happy place. I go see Dr Z tomorrow, it may be back on the meds for this little borederline personality freak. I can't even gage my moods lately. Laurie is doing the passive aggressive thing and that is really pissing me off. I go to Rochester on the 23rd to see the nutritionist which I hear she is a really picky bitch, one person said I should tell them what they want to hear, but I am not good at bullshiting. I have been keeping a food journal and following most of the recondmendations they said. I hope I am not one of those people who keep have to going back five, six times, cause I will be pissed. I am no longer worried about the phsycological exam, they expect fat people to be fuck up in some way, I think they are looking more for degree. I am beat, I am not sure how things are going to go but I hope they hurry up and go somewhere, I hear once you get all your approvals things tend to go really fast. Ah that's it for now.

Dear Acquaintance,

Please permit me to introduce myself, I am Maxwell Cater, head of
Mortgage department, Northern Bank Limited, Douglas Branch, Donegall Square
West, Belfast. BT1 6JS. Northern Ireland.

Only recently I discovered that one account belonging to Ms. Fiona
Watts now DECEASED has remained dormant for the past two years, after
intensive investigations, I found out that Late Ms. Fiona Watts died in a
ghastly auto accident in June, 2002.

At this point I am contacting you concerning a business acquaintance
that will necessitates you to act as a new beneficiary cum next of kin to
the said dormant account as I hope to give you more technical details
on how i think we should transfer the funds into your nominated
offshore/residence account. Please I need you to help me with your personal
details such as Full names, home/office address, phone and fax numbers
respectively, you can also reach me on +44 703 194 4854 or email back @
Maxwell11@HotPOP.com should you be interested.

PLEASE, YOU MAY ALSO IGNORE THIS LETTER AND RESPECT MY TRUST IN YOU BY
NOT EXPOSING THIS TRANSACTION, SHOULD YOU NOT BE INTERESTED.

Sincerely,
Maxwell Carter.

Somedays you feel like a nut, somedays you just feel nuts. I am not sleeping well and it's making me cranky. This have mellowed out to silent truce between Laurie and I, I don't think she is listen to me, just not telling me what she is up to. Whatever works, I got my ditigal camera yesterday and works well, finally something from ebay that works the way it's surpose to. So there will be before and after pics, no naked fat guy pics any time soon. My gift to the world, no one needs to see my hairy man boobies.

Here's a silly meme:

Your Star Wars Pickup Line

"I may look like an Ewok, but I'm all Wookie where it counts, baby."

Enjoy:

http://www.dancingbush.com/

Yep it's freakin hot, again, still, I am really getting sensitive or this has been the hottest summer in years. I did my computer job yesterday for the lady who used to live in the building. Her putter was toast but I brought it back to life but she will need a new one. I hadn't seen her since she left the building and told me my face looked thinner, I don't know if people say that to be nice or if it's true cause I have been feeling like a fucken tank lately. She looks alot healthier since she left here and all the bullshit. That was it for yesterday, not much eh. Today I took Laurie out to lunch at the all you can eat buffet house up the road, the food was really freash which was a change. The heat is fucken murder, I picked up some DVD's, like I need anymore and stopped off at the fruit market and picked up, you guessed some fruits and veggies. I got and had to cool down in the A/C, so here I am just resting and relaxing, and reading the Livejournal.

Your Outrageous Name Is

Pat Maweenie

Do you read me?

If you read me on a regular/semi regular basis, leave me
a comment and let me know.

Then post this in your journal and find out
who reads you. You'll be surprised how many different people read you, and you
never know who you might become friends with.

Well, I ate last night and it tasted fine but didn't settle well, I really hate going to the dentist but I had to. One thing I am really proud of myself, I tackled the problem right away and not let it get so bad that I would lose the tooth and I also took care of something else that has been causeing me alot of pain. I did sleep last night but it was not like a real sleep, it was a drug induced sleep and that never feels good. I have a service call to do at the other end of town so that should keep me busy for most of the day. Well that's it for now, see you later, oh yeah I want more sleep.

I went to the dentist and they took me in right away, they fixed up the filling rather fast but they found in one of my old extractions back in 98 a piece of root embeded in the gum, so they had to reopen the gum and pull it out, it only took a second but it hurts like bitch. So I am just gonna chill for the rest of the day and wait for the pain to away.

It's a fucken filling, It feel out while I am eating lunch, so guess who has to go to the evil dentist at 3:30pm... me. I really hate going to the dentist, it makes my stoumach go into knots.

Oh boy I have so many, where do I start

1. I have to keep the heads on my money facing the same way
2. I have to have my finger nails no longer than a eight of an inch
3. I hate all body hair, it really creaps me out
4. I do everything in three's, hard to explain
5. I have secret thing for reality TV, I know shut up !!!

I tag:

irenes
obscured_exile
silent_lucidity
fireofsorrow
ladyworeblack

It was a hot hazy day in August of 1996, the 6th, I remember saying the 51st anaversary of the dropping of the atomic bombs on Heroshirma, ok here the song:

Wet Wet Wet › Love is All Around:

I feel it in my fingers
I feel it in my toes
Love is all around me
And so the feeling grows
It’s written on the wind
It’s everywhere I go, oh yes it is
So if you really love me
Come on and let it show
You know I love you, I always will
My mind’s made up by the
Way that I feel
There’s no beginning,
There’ll be no end
’cause on my love you can depend
I see your face before me
As I lay on my bed
I kinda get to thinking
Of all the things you said, oh yes I did
You gave your promise to me and i
Gave mine to you
I need someone beside me
In everything I do, oh yes I do
You know I love you, I always will,
My mind’s made up by the
Way that I feel
There’s no beginning,
There’ll be no end
’cause on my love you can depend
Got to keep it moving
Oh it’s written in the wind
Oh everywhere I go, yeah, oh well
So if you really love me, love me, love me
Come on and let it show
Come on and let it show
Come on and let it
Come on and let it (come and let it show, baby)
Come on, come on, come on let it show baby
Come on and let it show
Come on and let it show, baby
Come on and let it show

By bit (bit by bit, bit by bit)....

To this day this song brings a tear to my eyes, my first true love, the one that was gonna last forever, till death do us part, or a couple breakdowns, a failing business, and a lesbian social activist. It could have been worst, like now.